Reconsideration

I thought I would take a moment to point out all the things I have reconsidered these past couple weeks...
I have reconsidered if I am a good mom. Evalie is talking a lot now and while her pronunciation is pretty good there are some things that just don't come out right. Like the word teeth and Jade. Two completely different words. The movement of your mouth for each is different. Say them both. How is it that these words could come out sounding exactly the same? Strangely enough they do, when said by Evalie, and the real strange part is that they don't sound anything like the actual word. No her word for Jade and teeth is (pardon my french) sh**. Yep that's the one, clear as a bell. No mistaking that one. Now I know I can't blame myself for her errors of speech, especially when the concept is still so new and she is just learning. No I reconsider my good mom status when I am surrounded by all my friends my high school I am showing off my daughter by making her say Jade and teeth, a.k.a well you know, all night long and laughing my head off at it each time.

Not just reconsidering if I am a good mom but whether or not I want to be a mom anymore. Yes sadly enough those words haunt my thoughts more often these days as Evalie is showing a true side of a 2 year old. The first time they came up was when Evalie came up to me while I was cleaning my room and opens her mouth and says "Ah". I look and see a penny on her tongue. I put my hand immediately underneath her chin and ask her to spit it out. Afraid I was going to grab it out of her mouth she tilts her head back and starts choking. I go into panicking thinking mom mode and throw her over my arm and start swatting her back. Just like I thought she would, she swallowed that penny. I wasn't too concerned at first because I have swallowed a penny a time or two and I knew they work their way out. Now here's when the thought of I don't want to be a mom anymore creeps in. When a child swallows a penny you must check their poo to make sure that the penny has worked it's way out. I did not want to do that, nor did I really try to do it, and I really don't want to do it ever again. Has the penny passed you ask? I don't really know for sure. To go along with the penny story, Evalie has some foam alphabet shapes she got from her friend on her first birthday. Well she loves to chew off the the little sides. Usually she spits it out and I end of throwing it away. Well for some reason she thought "hey I bet this is little enough to go up my nose, and far" so she did it. She comes up to me 'Mommy , nose?" I look to see a purple foam piece out of reach. I asked her to blow her nose a couple times but it didn't budge. As I was preparing to go to the doctor to get it out. I asked her one last time to blow her nose and she shot it out, slimy and all.


The third reconsideration I have is that of being a mother of a baby again. Evalie has finally reached that stage where I can sit and talk to the mothers while the child goes and plays on the playground. She can get herself up the steps and down the slide and cross the bridge and doesn't really need my assistance. She is learning to swim with floaties so I don't have to constantly be holding her up or making sure she doesn't go under water. I can walk beside her while she swims. She's not much of a trouble maker so I am not too worried about her getting into things she shouldn't. I really should work on making more educated decisions, but I guess it's too late now!