A New Found Respect

As of yesterday I am 12 weeks prego with #2 baby. This pregnancy has not been as hard as the first but still unbearable at times. I got my little newsletter saying that sickness and nausea should soon disappear. Words I needed to hear because yesterday I was on the verge all day long, if you know what I mean. I try to describe the different kinds of sickness to Jeff, but he gets confused easily. I describe my different sicknesses as a good day, meaning I am still sick but I didn't throw up and I had a little energy, bad day, meaning I was fatigued and on the couch all day, and on the verge meaning I was rushing to the bathroom numerous times and Evalie has been ignored all day. So yesterday I was on the verge, but trying to keep everything down, which I am not sure is a good idea or not. I still haven't decided. For dinner Jeff made Sloppy Joes, which didn't sound bad so I thought I would try it. It seemed to settle and stay down. I try to get Evalie out of the house at least once a day so she doesn't get cabin fever, so we decided to make a needed trip to Walmart. We are walking along, and my stomach is feeling unsettled. I asked Jeff if I was to throw up right now where should I do it. He thought the middle of the floor so it doesn't touch anything and then he would put out a caution wet floor sign and get someone else to clean it. As we were joking about previous times Jeff has had to clean up my spontaneous messes, I realize I had better start finding the bathroom because I was not going to keep this one down. I barely make it to the Family Restroom, so glad they have this and that it was empty so no one could hear, before up comes the Sloppy Joes. I know this is gross, it grosses me out while I am writing it, but I need to make a picture here. I am not a delicate vomiteer, or thrower upper. No I am quite intense. It's like having the stomach flu and needing to empty all contents of the stomach. It last for 5-10 minutes or so. Then the adrenaline usually gives me a boost of energy for a little while. This is where my new found RESPECT comes. I am one of those people that openly distaste Wal-mart and will always vote against it coming to a town, but secretly I shop there often. I don't like the smell and I don't think its very clean, but I have to tell ya that toilet was spotless white and had no smell to it. It was very comforting to know that I could lean over it and not be worried about someone else's mess from earlier or throwing up just because it smelled bad. No I was quite pleased and assured that if I needed to throw up there again I could do it.